jPay Message #633

8:21 am Monday morning. The yard is awash in activity, a whole world waking up to life on the inside. There are different ways to cope, and some are more free than others. There's a line to the weight pit, two dozen tryna get some early money. Others rush to their preferred set of pull … Continue reading jPay Message #633 →

jPay Message #623

**(idk if this is actually a worthwhile post or if i was just bitching about people and it isnt actually entertaining or interesting at all. sit on it for awhile) Despite giving lip service to loving everyone, it's human nature to need someone to hate. You don't even hate someone personally, but in the abstract. … Continue reading jPay Message #623 →

jPay Message #622

In this human garbage can, every social action can take on sinister overtones. Being rude is an implicit threat and a taunt. In the past, I never noticed line cutters, probably because adults don't normally have to wait in 15-30 minute lines multiple times per day. Now I entertain violent fantasies about anyone who cuts, … Continue reading jPay Message #622 →

jPay Message #506

Any time a female walks across the yard it's an event, like a sexy alien is suddenly in our presence. Everyone cranes their necks for a look, and half stop what they're doing to stare. In the weight pit, dude literally paused mid-rep to talk about what he'd do to "dat ass." He wasn't the … Continue reading jPay Message #506 →

jPay Message #500

The hardest days are the cold days, the bleak days when there's no sun, the days of despair when I wake up and try to hold onto dreams I can't quite remember, but can't fall back asleep. Outside, the wind makes the temperature feel like zero, but it's the promise I made myself--I force myself … Continue reading jPay Message #500 →