jPay Message #245

it wasn't too long into my prison bit before I became intensely self conscious of the size of my chest. i lacked anything close to pectorals. except for a brief period in my teens, I'd never made a habit of working out, and as a result of that neglect, I had flat-ass chest. lol ive … Continue reading jPay Message #245 →

“The skinny on skinheads”

I thought fersure I was gonna get along with Nazis or any other white supremacist group. we already had an environmental affinity for and natural predisposition to one another; that is, we were both white guys in prison. despite being hotbeds of racism, few avowed white supremacists, neo-nazis, or Aryan brotherhood types stomp around the … Continue reading “The skinny on skinheads” →

“Neurotransmitter Nirvana”

Swimming in post workout endorphins, I lose myself in reverie, picturing the "getting sentenced to prison" montage for the future hbo show. It'll start with my sentencing, broadcast on youtube and conducted over Zoom (a nod to the covid era); followed by a sequence detailing the difficulties of adjusting to life in the joint; finally … Continue reading “Neurotransmitter Nirvana” →

jPay Message #202

Today at lunch, control center briefly rescinded our quarantine restrictions after three weeks of no (false) positive tests, only to reimpose them again at 4 o'clock count. Allegedly, someone who went home two days ago failed the re-entry test required of every parolee by testing positive for covid. At this point, I just think they're … Continue reading jPay Message #202 →

jPay Message #196

The convict code almost requires a blithe indifference to any calendar. Counting days can drive a man insane; 6 months to the door is generally considered the appropriate time to start thinking about release. Even so, I can't help making mental notes in regards to important milestones: In four days Ill have officially made it … Continue reading jPay Message #196 →