My peer recovery group takes place every Friday night in room 9 of the East School Building. During the week, this room hosts "Thinking For A Change," a parole-board mandated program. Makeshift posters cover the walls. Written in Sharpie, and in all caps, these "Thinking Reports" are testaments of lower-class decision making. Here's an example: … Continue reading jPay Message #701
Tag: Addiction
“Rambling Reflections on Addiction”
Addiction recovery is personal. Everyone has their own journey, and there is no one-size-fits-all approach, contrary to AA dogmatists. In fact, most people, at some point in their lives, fit the clinical definition of an addict, and yet their lives aren't derailed. They stop those destructive behaviors, and become responsible adults, despite having the "disease." … Continue reading “Rambling Reflections on Addiction”
jPay Message #384
This is my 4th Christmas away. At first I didnt miss it much, too concerned with my pending fate, but now that reality's settled in, I miss it. The holidays werent just a time to be sad and alone--maybe melancholy-- but I spent it with my family, who I actually like. I kinda wonder what … Continue reading jPay Message #384
“Overdosing on Reality TV”
The newest seasons of all the best reality/ dating shows are now playing. What stands out in contrast to previous years is their depiction of life during covid. The cast is jus emerging from quarantine and must comply with a litany of restrictions and precautions, like everyone else. Moreover, they're not just traumatized by covid--we all … Continue reading “Overdosing on Reality TV”
“Crank Tanker”
Considering how deep in the drug game I was, methwas surprisingly elusive. despite knowing tons of adderall users, doing meth was simply taboo (for good reason). even if I wanted to, there was no one I could turn to buy some. I neither knew anyone with access nor who had used it a lot. I … Continue reading “Crank Tanker”
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