There's no one to impress but yourself. There's no "not showering because you're depressed." Someone will fight you. Or, at least, excoriate you mercilessly. You're bullied into good hygiene. You're not allowed to publicly wallow. You have to brush your teeth or be ostracized. In my unit, there are a few guys with shitty breath … Continue reading “Looks aren’t everything, but they’re a lot”
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jPay Message #392
I don’t have the luxury of feeling depressed--or, to be exact, act depressed. Ive seen guys get beat up for not showering. I gotta make my bed, sweep my area, keep my shit tight, or else...My breath stinks? there's 50 people in the vicinity who'll be glad to let me know. In that way, prison … Continue reading jPay Message #392
“Neurotransmitter Nirvana”
Swimming in post workout endorphins, I lose myself in reverie, picturing the "getting sentenced to prison" montage for the future hbo show. It'll start with my sentencing, broadcast on youtube and conducted over Zoom (a nod to the covid era); followed by a sequence detailing the difficulties of adjusting to life in the joint; finally … Continue reading “Neurotransmitter Nirvana”
“Release Date Reveries”
Considering my out-date remains a whole 'nother presidential election away, it's important for me to discipline my mind enough so I don't drift off into or get lost in daydreams about getting out of the joint. Of course, I've some big, specific plans--and some smaller, vaguer ideas--of how I want the rest of my life … Continue reading “Release Date Reveries”
jPay Message #195
its sad how big a deal cable TV has become for me. I literally base my schedule off what's good on TV. I used to think less of people like this; not that I made fun of them, I jus thought they were lesser humans. Oh well, I guess we inevitably become like people we … Continue reading jPay Message #195
Easy Trouble 