jPay Message #388

I read a book about lucid dreaming and how to do it (also known as oneironautics....there's a word-of-the-day) when I first came down, but never made much headway in the practice. Tbh, too much work and discipline. But as i was destined to run out of things to do and be bored,I was also bound … Continue reading jPay Message #388 →

jPay Message #231

daytime TV makes me despair. I'm surrounded by the future stars of shows like Maury or Cops. worse, I'm afraid I may possibly be one. its reassuring to be in a unit where they'd purposefully put an old man with a nickname like Shitty, because he shits on the bathroom floor all the time. these … Continue reading jPay Message #231 →

jPay Message #195

its sad how big a deal cable TV has become for me. I literally base my schedule off what's good on TV. I used to think less of people like this; not that I made fun of them, I jus thought they were lesser humans. Oh well, I guess we inevitably become like people we … Continue reading jPay Message #195 →

“Duality”

One thing about prison life is the suddenly revelatory nature of dreams. In fact, dreaming becomes so vivid that it becomes a sort of second life...i start to wonder if it's a truer reality than my daytime consciousness, which now feels abruptly evanescent. It's like what that Buddhist philosopher said: I dreamed I was a … Continue reading “Duality” →

jPay Message #145

it's been two months since I've moved to h-unit and it's a vast improvement over C. along with d, those two units were known as the jungle. They were so bad that it wasn't uncommon for someone coming from another unit to lock up* instead of bunk down in those units. moreover I'm in the … Continue reading jPay Message #145 →