In this human garbage can, every social action can take on sinister overtones. Being rude is an implicit threat and a taunt. In the past, I never noticed line cutters, probably because adults don't normally have to wait in 15-30 minute lines multiple times per day. Now I entertain violent fantasies about anyone who cuts, … Continue reading jPay Message #622
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jPay Message #211
I've mentioned before how the social conditions of prison incentivize the adoption of extremist religious positions: chomos become Bible thumpers, ex-crack heads turn into black supremacist Muslims, certain whites join the Odinists. As much as I've tried to go back to church, I quickly lapsed after a couple months. It just felt insincere; incarcerated convicts … Continue reading jPay Message #211
“Release Date Reveries”
Considering my out-date remains a whole 'nother presidential election away, it's important for me to discipline my mind enough so I don't drift off into or get lost in daydreams about getting out of the joint. Of course, I've some big, specific plans--and some smaller, vaguer ideas--of how I want the rest of my life … Continue reading “Release Date Reveries”
jPay Message #195
its sad how big a deal cable TV has become for me. I literally base my schedule off what's good on TV. I used to think less of people like this; not that I made fun of them, I jus thought they were lesser humans. Oh well, I guess we inevitably become like people we … Continue reading jPay Message #195
“Playboys, Perversions, and a Prayer”
After two years of surviving on nothing but imagination and memory (and usually some creative mixture of the two), I broke down and finally bought some porn as a stimulus to rub one out. I procured a Playboy in exchange for two yellow bags of coffee. Playboys are some of the highest-quality porn we're allowed … Continue reading “Playboys, Perversions, and a Prayer”
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