One thing about prison life is the suddenly revelatory nature of dreams. In fact, dreaming becomes so vivid that it becomes a sort of second life...i start to wonder if it's a truer reality than my daytime consciousness, which now feels abruptly evanescent. It's like what that Buddhist philosopher said: I dreamed I was a … Continue reading “Duality”
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jPay Message #192
It's 11:47 pm and im wondering where the day went. That's as good as it gets in here. Since so much of prison is routine (3 counts per day, the meals, activities available), it's best to schedule your days with a routine of your own to fill the extra time. This sameness, this Groundhog's Day … Continue reading jPay Message #192
jPay Message #190
Since basically none of my friends have ever been locked up or even known someone besides me that had been, they are very intrigued by what prison is like, and if the stereotypes are true. "Dropping the soap" is a recurring inquiry. Hopefully, it stems from a morbid fascination, nor worry. I know because of … Continue reading jPay Message #190
“A Cautionary Tale”
On my fifth day of prison, I hear my bunk number announced over the loudspeaker. I'm informed someone's here to see me, and told to change into my blues and head to the control center. My mind races with guesses of who my visitors were, making me nearly giddy with anticipation. My stomach plummets when … Continue reading “A Cautionary Tale”
jPay Message #145
it's been two months since I've moved to h-unit and it's a vast improvement over C. along with d, those two units were known as the jungle. They were so bad that it wasn't uncommon for someone coming from another unit to lock up* instead of bunk down in those units. moreover I'm in the … Continue reading jPay Message #145
Easy Trouble 