jPay Message #409

Every day is a ritual. At night the most you have to look forward is whatever comes on TV, or whatever movies the prison plays. The local news is popular because they often do stories on prison and good time. Good time has become a pipe dream for any inmate with a decent chunk of … Continue reading jPay Message #409 →

jPay Message #404

It's early morning, yard's just opened. Im headed out to exercise when awhole slew cops escort a cuffed inmate walk by me. But I never saw what lead up to that. Then the sirens start blaring, and I know what time it is...emergency count. Some are slow to shuffle off the yard, to the chagrin … Continue reading jPay Message #404 →

“Breath Counting”

I've used the breath counting meditation for nearly two months now. I'm realizing you get reap more benefits the longer you work with a single "type" of meditation. The breath-counting meditation is pretty self-explanatory.--you jus count your breaths. More precisely, you count each exhale, up to 4, before you return back to 1 (any higher … Continue reading “Breath Counting” →

jPay Message #400

I’ve mentioned in the past that prison affords you plenty of opportunity to improve yourself and work on how you react to others, especially when they're shitheads. I watched the new PBS documentary on Ben Franklin the other day. When he was young, he constantly tried to improve himself and he kept track of his … Continue reading jPay Message #400 →

“Surreality Part 2”

Each morning, I groggily wake up to the fact that I'm in prison, sometimes with an attitude, or in despair. I'm getting used to it--this is my life now. If I can't yet handle it, I try to go back to sleep, but always fail. That transition from pleasant freedom of a dream to the … Continue reading “Surreality Part 2” →