Considering my out-date remains a whole 'nother presidential election away, it's important for me to discipline my mind enough so I don't drift off into or get lost in daydreams about getting out of the joint. Of course, I've some big, specific plans--and some smaller, vaguer ideas--of how I want the rest of my life … Continue reading “Release Date Reveries”
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jPay Message #195
its sad how big a deal cable TV has become for me. I literally base my schedule off what's good on TV. I used to think less of people like this; not that I made fun of them, I jus thought they were lesser humans. Oh well, I guess we inevitably become like people we … Continue reading jPay Message #195
“Duality”
One thing about prison life is the suddenly revelatory nature of dreams. In fact, dreaming becomes so vivid that it becomes a sort of second life...i start to wonder if it's a truer reality than my daytime consciousness, which now feels abruptly evanescent. It's like what that Buddhist philosopher said: I dreamed I was a … Continue reading “Duality”
jPay Message #192
It's 11:47 pm and im wondering where the day went. That's as good as it gets in here. Since so much of prison is routine (3 counts per day, the meals, activities available), it's best to schedule your days with a routine of your own to fill the extra time. This sameness, this Groundhog's Day … Continue reading jPay Message #192
“A Cautionary Tale”
On my fifth day of prison, I hear my bunk number announced over the loudspeaker. I'm informed someone's here to see me, and told to change into my blues and head to the control center. My mind races with guesses of who my visitors were, making me nearly giddy with anticipation. My stomach plummets when … Continue reading “A Cautionary Tale”
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